I was wondering if the chorus of this song were real words. Well, the answer lays here to those who are curious like me.
Do I attract you? Do I repulse you with my queasy smile? Am I too dirty? Am I too flirty? Do I like what you like?
I could be wholesome I could be loathsome I guess Im a little bit shy Why dont you like me? Why dont you like me without making me try?
I try to be like Grace Kelly But all her looks were too sad So I try a little Freddie Ive gone identity mad!
I could be brown I could be blue I could be violet sky I could be hurtful I could be purple I could be anything you like Gotta be green Gotta be mean Gotta be everything more Why dont you like me? Why dont you like me? Why dont you walk out the door!
How can I help it How can I help it How can I help what you think? Hello my baby Hello my baby Putting my life on the brink Why dont you like me
Why dont you like me Why dont you like yourself? Should I bend over? Should I look older just to be put on the shelf?
I try to be like Grace Kelly But all her looks were too sad So I try a little Freddie Ive gone identity mad!
I could be brown I could be blue I could be violet sky I could be hurtful I could be purple I could be anything you like Gotta be green Gotta be mean Gotta be everything more Why dont you like me? Why dont you like me? Why dont you walk out the door!
Say what you want to satisfy yourself But you only want what everybody else says you should want
I could be brown I could be blue I could be violet sky I could be hurtful I could be purple I could be anything you like Gotta be green Gotta be mean Gotta be everything more Why dont you like me? Why dont you like me? Why dont you walk out the door!
At times I feel in absolute awe of creation. I look around and I actually see things which will shape a smile on my face. Just yesterday, when I was in the mall, I see not just kids, but imaginative crazy little kidsdoing all sorts of things to get their parents attention. To my dismay, these parents not only ignore their children, but cloud their happiness with a stern face. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever become one of them. When life starts getting hold of you. Work starts to overwhelm you. Husband starts to become less of an adoration. Yadda yadda yadda, you know the gist.
But what amazes me is the kiutness of these little children! I personally love kids. Well, to be frank, at times, selectively. I saw this young boy walking into the shop with his mommy and when his mommy was busy browsing through the clothings, I suppose he got bored. He started imitating a lorry! Not just a lorry...a REVERSING lorry! He literally walked backwards, with the *tooot toooot toooot* sound. He bumped into his mom and he went shrieking. My gosh, it was REALLY the most adorable scene. I felt like hugging that chubby little cherub! The part which got me to pucker my eyebrows was when the mom scolded him and made him sit down on the provided couch. In my heart, I was burned with the word of a big B with an itch repetitively.
This morning, as I was standing in front of the sink with a blank mind, I looked out the window and there was this little kitten. It was staring deeply into something and I looked to that direction. The kitten was gazing at the little birdie on the wall! Both of them made eye contact! Then this other kitten came by, saw the first kitten's tail wiggly wiggly, he got excited! Started chasing chasing after the tail. Then the mother saw it. Then the mother starts wiggling her tail, playing with her child. Teeheee...
There were more...but unfortunately I have the memory of a goldfish. But anyway...this makes me go on to say that....Truly, best things in life are free...but also intangible....Cause hey, let's face it, clichely uttered, human greed can never be fed enough by tangible things.
2:59:00 PM
feet.......feast? teehee...
I spent half an hour obsessing over........my...new...shoes... *cue gasp* (Erm, it'll only work if you know me in person) Yup. This Rachel actually step foot into a shoe shop......and saw something she likes *insert high pitch shriek* .......IT was just sitting there...This pair of feet glove, oh so lady-like, so feminine! Well I can't help it alright! My Rachelli sense (in reference to Spidey sense. *roll eyes*) went all tingly wingly when I saw it. And there it was, this certain sense of fatal attraction occurring between me and THE thing. *sigh* Was too late to turn back even though I knew right there and then, sin was empowering me**.
You want to know what's the critical bit of this whole compulsion? I drove 55 miles from Mid Valley Megamall all the way to Sunway and then headed for One Utama to get it. All this in about...half an hour? Yeah! Half an hour. I didn't want to bum into those seasonally gluttonous dungus when they all rush out one shot and cause a massive traffic obstruction. I have no patience for that, nor can I wait to get my hands on those beee-uuu-teee-fuul shoes!
I presume, at this point, YOU would have developed a total 360 degree turn and cause a loud thump on the ground as a result of fainting. And you would get your little butt back up to continue with this rachel-irrationality. Or not...But hey, if there is one thing you need to but don't want to know about me would be that, I am the most indecisive being left on earth. Most of them just got swiped off the surface of the earth for some unforeseen peculiar reason. I can stay in one shop focused on one small section at the corner thinking whether I should get the green or the red of the same item. At the same time I'm indecisive, I'm also impulsive. I don't know how both can exist in one person, but yeah....I...live by the motto: "You see. You like. You conquer. If you can't decide, don't worry. Just take your time." I take the time thing very literally. Longest record; an hour an a half. Yup yup yup. So rejoice with me why don't you, when I have actually set my mind on target on what to purchase this time round!
*clears throat* So anyway, back to square one. Yes. I..have been obsessing over this wondrous, glorious item for the past hour. Spent about half an hour admiring it, and the other half snapping shots of it with this insensitive and lousy, yet (reluctantly said) useful (well.....gotta give it SOME credit) camera phone. Which brings me to my next point....I need a camera. But will discuss that later.
For now, just feast your eyes on these few piccies I tookie took took! Don't judge. You have no rights to. So says me. *rawr*
**Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever. (1 John 2:15-17)
Yeah, I know...But hey, as unexcited as I may be, I still have a light sprinkle of gladness covering my head. But to think again...should I be? See...the thing is....exam's in weeks ahead! *Rawr* A Malaysian student's life...what are you gonna do? Our lives pretty much revolves around the typical stuff; errrm, let's see...studying...examinations....more studying and examinations! To really evaluate this...we keep striving for that assignment, for that one paper...do we actually learn anything much that it retains in our tiny little brain? *Ngyah*
As my good friend once said (actually, repetitively he says), "Rachel. You have mushrooms growing in your head." I know my problem has become severe when I was in MPH in Mid Valley this noon. This may sound a bit ridiculous but I drove all the way there to get Post-It flags. You know, the ones you stick to mark your pages cause you are so forgetful that even though your Business Law lecturer repeats herself so much on the cases, it still doesn't seem to be absorbed into your slowly- dying little neurons.
So anyway, I went there, with the intention to get small little tiny Post-Its. *Sudden realisation* My gosh. Will anyone be able to help me? I stayed in MPH for half an hour to think whether I should buy the small little flags (which was what I was looking for) but of the colours I absolutely do not fancy and is favoured among all Business Law students (RM 17.01)....OR should I get 4 seperate coloured flags but consist of colours I love (RM32.04). A normal, logical being would insist on the lower budget one right away. I, stood there for more than half an hour. I tried calling Chris (cause he usually makes decisions for me) but couldn't get through. Out of desperation, I called Shu Yi. I know! It sounds absurd! But what is an indecisive, picky little girl to do at such hour of desperation?? Aaaaa. But yeah, I got the 17 ringgit one in the end.
Oh. So so. Then I went to MPH in One Utama....and there it was.....a wrapping paper FILLED WITH BUTTONS!!! Where can you find such wrapping paper on a normal basis??? I love MPH!
top 10 things you don't wanna hear in a music store
12:27:00 PM
...story to be told soon...
Will blog about this one day. When i run out of assignments and time is all I have on my plate. *sob* So so many things happened since July. Too many responsibilities and not forgetting my nature as an 'occasional bum'. I hate being a growing being. Why can't life just stop where you want it to!
11:39:00 AM
September 04, 2007
....somedays...i feel like this....
11:52:00 PM
September 03, 2007
what have i discovered today?
I like BUTTONS........I really really like BUTTONS...
Sent by a dear friend out of the blue. One of those lists which makes you smile or even laugh when you hit a bullseye. You know...those which speaks of some obvious fact and some inapplicable.
1. Guys hate sluts. 2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" - Two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
11. Guys get jealous easily.
12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what? ...uh...never mind…" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.
17. Guys are very open about themselves.
18. Its good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
23. Guys will brag about anything.
24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls, they rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.
25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.
29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.
30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me.
37. Guys don't really have final decisions.
38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume, just not too much.
46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
50. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it .
51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn’t mean he represents ALL of us.
10:30:00 PM
September 02, 2007
7:49:00 PM
September 01, 2007
walking down memory lane
I don't know if you guys know ofRoger Hargreaves's Little Misses andMr. Menseries. I loved and still am loving THEM! Recently, I can see them walking around...(No I am not imagining things!) Imprinted on Tees and the books are in MPH! If you there are by any chance a parent or going to be one, DO get your children the series! Look how I've turned out! *giggle giggle*
see...this is what happens to some people when they don't listen...
12:14:00 PM
the one who speaks
rachel
bits and crumbs
Once upon a time there was a cow. Yes. A cow. And this cow had a friend. Friend was a sheep. See, both of them were green. In that place they lived in, all things were made green. The mushrooms, the potato land, the trees, the mosquitoes. And suddenly came down a star, CRASHING down to their planet, and ALL things became kalerful! And that star was ME. Rachelli. Ngyahahaha. *Scwoll down pwease*