:: rachel. more than just a word ::
...Rachel. More Than Just A Word...
November 22, 2006
on the negative side
i need a friend......
no one actually understands anyone and everyone fakes everything. and just because i can't bring myself to do that, i don't have any friends.
what are friends?
as quoted from my msn personal message, "friends are pretentious lil blood-sucking leeches". how far this isn't true? who can really prove me wrong?
pardon my drenching in self-pity.
i.....have no friends. it's true. i always go all out for the wrong people. i am not allowed to express my emotions to my so-called friends. if i'm upset just one day, i am called moody. only now i realised that i am expected to put on a happy mask each and everyday and like most politicians, play the conventional role. socially accepted expression, behaviour.
can a person REALLY accept you for the way you are? honestly, i don't believe in that. people will always try to change you. and being the hypocrites they are, they will say, "don't worry. i'll love you for who you are". if they wake up one fine morning and realise that they can't do any further to change you, they leave you.
can everyone really trust their soul mate, confidant, spouse? one thing i realised about people. the only person that you can trust, is only yourself. no matter how close or how attached you are to another person, you will only find yourself getting hurt one day.
i hate my f******.
12:03:00 AM
the one who speaks
rachel
bits and crumbs
Once upon a time there was a cow. Yes. A cow. And this cow had a friend. Friend was a sheep. See, both of them were green. In that place they lived in, all things were made green. The mushrooms, the potato land, the trees, the mosquitoes. And suddenly came down a star, CRASHING down to their planet, and ALL things became kalerful! And that star was ME. Rachelli. Ngyahahaha. *Scwoll down pwease*
