October 17, 2006
..............................
Death is really.....scary.
Especially when your loved ones know that they are about to leave the world. For some odd reasons...a person actually knows when they are about to die...You know something isn't right when your 67 years old grandpa get out of the hospital bed he has been lying on for 3 weeks and eagerly requests for the SS2 wanton noodle out of the blue when all he has been consuming was non-solid food.
You know that aomething isn't right when they tell you for 3 consecutive days that they have been having visions or dreams about late grandma or some ancestor trying to reach out to them...
Death is really.....scary.
Especially when your loved ones know that they are about to leave the world. For some odd reasons...a person actually knows when they are about to die...You know something isn't right when your 67 years old grandpa get out of the hospital bed he has been lying on for 3 weeks and eagerly requests for the SS2 wanton noodle out of the blue when all he has been consuming was non-solid food.
You know that something isn't right when they tell you for 3 consecutive days that they have been having visions or dreams about late grandma or some ancestor trying to reach out to them...
You know it is coming....when you found out that they force down a whole bottle of pain killers at 4 in the morning because they just miss the feeling of being able to taste food again...and not having difficulties every single day dealing with the striking pain at the abdominal region.....
You know it. You know what comes next......and then....they are gone...
No chance of hugging them at Chinese New Year reunion dinners anymore.....can't hear them calling your name and ask you to get them their favourite chinese tea....not being able to see them smile....
They are...gone...
And the worse thing is....it eats you up slowly. You get that instant shock when your aunt calls your parents at 3 am to deliver the news that granddad has gone to be with God....You feel numb...And nothing happens until you start missing them....It's the worse feeling ever.....
...I miss you grandpa....
1:07:00 AM