May 31, 2006
*BLINK BLINK* (AMAZED)
if there was ONE thing FAST my class could do, it would be spreading WORDS.
once, during the holidays, i had youth camp and we needed some equipments. TRANSFORMER and WALKIE-TALKIES. so, i called up kian chee, this lovely friend of mine, to check whether he has any of the stuff. he said no and i THOUGHT that was it. the next thing i know, when classes started again, 29 PEOPLE (the amount of people in my class) LAUGHING THEIR HEADS OFF and asking me again and again, "eh rachel, why you need.....TRANSFORMER for la??". and the HA...HA...HAs....
about 10 minutes ago, ann called me and woke me up to ask me whether i wanna go catch a movie. so, i said yes and got out of my bed...walk straight to my comp, turned it on, connect to the internet, and saw kian chee.
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:54:17 AM |
| everybody loves rachel |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| futsal! futsal! |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:54:30 AM |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| everybody loves rachel |
| i tot u shud go pyramid? |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:54:40 AM |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| everybody loves rachel |
| yo |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:54:59 AM |
| everybody loves rachel |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| WOW |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:55:03 AM |
| everybody loves rachel |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| how you know??? |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:55:12 AM |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| everybody loves rachel |
| psychic |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:55:21 AM |
| everybody loves rachel |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| TELL la |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:55:42 AM |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| everybody loves rachel |
| ann ajak |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:55:45 AM |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| everybody loves rachel |
| but im not going la |
| 5/31/2006 |
| 10:55:58 AM |
| everybody loves rachel |
| Ryan.....Kay Cee |
| oooOoOOoo |
it took mere seconds for the news to travel around! in my class, NEWS travels FASTER than the speed of light. FREGGGGGGGYYYYYY....
10:59:00 AM
TWINKLES OF ME
the question of whether God really does exist used to always play in my head. well, at that time, i was still contemplating and confused and also refuse to commit myself to any religion. mostly because, EVERYONE confuses *me*!
how? let *me* tell you my story...
when i was REALLY young, hmmMMmm, prolly around the age of 5, my parents were too busy to take care of *me*. their job were their priority. (yes. awwww + sob sob) i was put under the care of this REALLY nice woman, aunty angeline. well, she teaches *me* the ways of a christian....that being, constantly praying, be thankful to God always always, be an obedient child, so on and so forth. so, at that moment, i really believe in God and like being a christian.
my parents on the other hand, are buddhist. and they are very religious people. they would always try to bring *me* to the temple and teach *me* how to pray to idols and such. being the curious kid i was, i kept wondering, "what is mommy and daddy doing? why are they talking to the doll?". with my eyes looking up and down and everywhere around and also half fainting because of the constant inhaling of incense smell, i just did what they wanted *me* to do. so i kneel and pray.
when i was 9, i transferred to another primary school in shah alam. that being said, i was in a school with the majority of students being muslims. and you won't believe what happened to *me* at that time. i was made SITI FATIMAH by my muslim friends! yes. SITI FATIMAH (no offense meant to the SITI FATIMAHs reading this), of ALL names. i was persuaded millions of times to join their religion. they made *me* utter these 2 lines (which i didn't know whether it's correct or wrong by the way) from the Quran which will convert *me* to a muslim. well. if you're wondering, YES. i did (don't judge *me*! i was NINE)....and i was expecting some miracle to happen, like a streak of light shining down on *me* or angels floating around *me* or................you know where i'm getting at la. YES. i was naive....and perhaps at SOME point...(yah yah. say it along if you want to...) stupid.
well, at the age of 14, i figured i've had enough. i drift and stay away from nything with the word RELIGION. i want to be free.......and think.....for myself. so...you prolly would have guessed what i became. YUP YUP YUP! a FREE THINKER. (yay. aren't you the smart one) hhhhMmmmM...i gotta say, the amount of comments i got from different people were countless. even a cab driver once condemned *me* for being a malaysian and not fulfilling the principles of the "rukun tetangga" which states you have to have a religion, yadda yadda yadda.
at that time i thought. who CARES? i'm happy.
until ONE fine day, it hit *me*. my church's youth worker, wei shen, gave this sermon on "Consistency in Prayers". that was the day...it SLAPPED *me* right in the face, like PIAAAK! and i cried and cried and cried and cried and cried and oh, did i mention CRIED? the whooooolllleeeee DAY! i don't know how, i don't know why. it just hit *me*. and i'm really glad it did.
and yes. God does answer prayers. he answered many of mine....and i'm really glad that i found Him again.
i said AGAIN because...i was once a believer. and then i doubted Him. i became one of His lost sheeps.
2:13:00 AM
May 30, 2006
DUN'T *ME* LUK PRIIIIIITTTEEEEE
NNNNGGGGGYYYYAAAHHHAHAHAHAHA!! luk luk...it's *meeeeeeeeee* teeheehee. with those fly looking eyes. isn't that the kulest shades you've EVER seen?? it's from forever 21, the new shop in one utama. so if you wanna come looking like a fly, ya know where to get those bbbbbbeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuttttiiifullll eye shell....
even the guy behind me wants it....ngyahahahahaha.....
4:24:00 PM
May 29, 2006
LALLAALLAA
today EARLY morning, when i was in slumberland, 10 000 people were calling calling CALLING *me* and another 500 smsing smsing SMSING *me*. they did a GREAT job in waking me up...but NOT in getting me out of bed. im glooooooeed. sighh~ however. this ONE particular message managed to pull *me* out of bed with panda looking eyes.
so, at 11.45, i was driving to college with a sulky face. i came to this particular road which has quite a few bumps. you know...BUMPS. suddenly, something caught my eye. instantly i was SNAPPED out of my moodiness and a HUUUUGEEEE SMILE was plastered on my face. what was it?
i could see many many cars going across this bump on the opposite road and it is as though the cars were BOWING to *me*. i felt so..............GRAND.........teeheehee.
this triggers my memory of something else......those monday assemblies of our schooling days....when we where forced to do the usual synchronized singing in the hall......so, there was this ONE day, ALL of the sudden i noticed this... (and it made me laugh oh so very loudly during the school song!)...when they're singing...they will all inhale and exhale at the same time. it was so KUL. you can see peoples' shoulders going up and down, ALL at the same time....like they're some chinese ghost or something...teeheeehee.
9:32:00 PM
remember how i said Over The Hedge is the epitome of kiutness......look.....what.....i.....found......
oooohhhhhhh my GUUUUUUUDDDDDDDNESSSSS.......there's more where that came from.......
aiyoooooo....look at the poor dah-ling..............
1:23:00 AM
SOME STUFF WE DO SOMETIMES...
one utama THREE days in a row. i can actually catch the prelims, semi-finals and finals of the futsal match they were havin in the centre court. hmmMMMm but for some farnee reason, no matter how many times you go to one utama, you never seem to be able to get sick of that place. it's just....one utama.
well, today is a major food feast. i've never eaten SO much in my whole entire life! i felt like...i felt like a hamster! caeser's salad + orange juice at ms. reads, baskin robbins' twinberry cheesecake, itallianies' stuffed mushrooms + raisin bread pudding (to die for actually) + mango dessert. my gosh!!!! it was keraezeee.....
we got a little high at itallianies. picture 3 dungus LAUGHING their heads off for one hour over a bottle of olive oil... (we forgot to apologize to it. it prolly felt...offended) we were laughing SO hard we nearly choked on our own food and sprayed each other's faces with the drinks...teeheehee...
it was a keraezee day...
12:45:00 AM
May 27, 2006
THE EPITOME OF KIUUUUUUTNESSSSS!!!!
over the hedge! three words that describes everything related to the word KIUT. have you EVER seen a tortoise SO kiut, running around with squirrels and and...a family of hedgehogs..and and, possums?? they call themselves...family....(come with the awwwwwsss!!!)
verne, the tortoise RUNS everywhere around, carrying his tortoise shell and sometimes pulling it back up, if it gets too low, like how a girl wearing a tube top would pull her top and scream "GET BACK IN THERE!!!"
then then, there's this KERAEZEEE squirrel, hammy. so so silly goonie. he has this SUPERB high sugar rush that when he takes in sugar, it makes the world stops. then he zoom zooom ZOOOOOMMMMM everywhere around with the speed of light!
see! see! that's HAMMY! the one with the whipped cream all over his mouth!! the kiuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuteeeeeeessssssttttttttt gang were the hedgehog kids. aiyoooooooooooo. they RRRHHEEALLLLLLLYYYYY made *me* couldn't stand it. they were soooooooooooooooooo kiuuuuuutttt kiut kiut kiut. they make like many many monkey faces (eventhough they are hedgehogs) and their expressions are just so....walalalla. i forgot what their names are though. teeheee. there was one part where they had to drive, the 3 little ones...and the adults were yack yack yack, dung dung dung. then then, they went like, "no fighting while we're driving or we'll turn this van around!". aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
then ar, there's all these bad bad guys ya know. they wanna get rid of all these kiuuuuut creatures! so stoppeeettt!! i box them then they know...
i wanted to bring them ALL back home! and i did! sigh~ sadly, only by memory. teehee....
11:58:00 PM
DOES THINGS HAVE TO WORK THAT WAY?
is it just *me*or does bad things has to hit you, all in one day? it just comes shooting you like thousands of nails off a staple gun! i can almost say, it CAN'T be LUCK. see, to *me*, luck....doesn't really exist. it sorta works like a....placebo, to make some people feel better in some....odd ways.
i checked up Cambridge for the definiton of the word 'luck'. i bet you, whoever who's reading this can't define this particular word. its like most of the words we know. we know it but not exactly know know it.....yeah....ANYWAY, luck. hmMm. it's defined as...(here comes! here comes!)...
"the force that causes things, especially good things, to happen to you by chance and not as a result of your own efforts or abilities"
hmmMmm. when googled for "the history of luck", there is no clear cut explaination or precise description of it. this 'luck' thingy, is somehow associated with EVERYTHING else but itself. there's "HISTORY and LUCK". there's "WEATHER HISTORY FOR LUCK". there's "GOOD LUCK and BAD HISTORY". but no HISTORY OF LUCK. farnee how they can make it a noun. even farnee-er they can make it exist! so surreal and naive. tsk tsk. like they have got nothing to blame on and refuse to put blame on self, so they simply come up with a term and make people believe in it.
i don't know why. whenever something bad happens to *me*, it sorta attracts other bad things and starts this whole chain of bad things to be happenin on rachel! and it gets to *me* EVERYTIME! it drives *me* keraezeee and puts *me* to the lowest mode. is it coz when you know once you start your day off badly, you would somehow see things more on the negative side, like,say, a negative outcome for everything you do? ...or.....it's just coz youre....jinxed for the day..?
and again, jinx. other thing which is non-explanatory. but comparatively speaking, i believe in this jinx thing.
let me outline one of those bad days of mine to you. YUP. bad DAY. almost considerably a whole dang day. almost 24 hours of continouos bad things hitting on *me*.
:: one day, phone ran out of battery in the mid of my sleep.
:: woke up late coz alarm was out with the phone.
:: got out of bed.
:: of all days, shower had super low water pressure that day.
:: late for class.
:: raining.
:: stuck in a jam.
:: couldn't find parking.
:: found parking after several turns around coll.
:: when paying for parking, it got up to RM3.80 (RM4 for a whole day parking) and machine got jammed. ALL my coins shoot out like some machine with major diarrhoea.
:: got into class drenched wet.
:: in class FREEZING my butt off for 3 hours.
:: during break, wanna go print out assignment in the college's web.
:: diskette could print EVERYTHING else BUT my actual ESSAY. had to go HOME during class and RETYPE and REFINE the whole essay.
:: went to the web to print (5 minutes till bio lecturer rejects the projects), printer 1 got stuck. couldn't print. switch to printer 2, GEZEBILLIONS of souls with spoiled printer waiting for their stuff to be printed out.
:: RAAAAAAANNNNN to the HIGHEST floor and FURTHEST class to hand it in.
the rest of the day? i spend it in bed to put a stop to all the bad things from keeping coming on to *me*.
for that ONE particular day, which i remember the sequence so clearly by the way, i felt like a total magnet. and if i continually get it, i know i'll behlowww....
4:12:00 PM
ONE DAY WITH THE COW CLAN
imagine trying to direct 3 cars fitting 12 cows to get to williams in a heavy pouring rain when you yourself am not too sure about the route. your cow clan have been "katak di bawah tempurung" for far too long, hence, not knowing where is lim kok wing, or rather, for some of them, WHAT is lim kok wing.
4 cars coming out of one utama from all different exits. it was raining cats and dogs and NONE of your cow clan knows how to get to williams. you have to direct 3 other designated drivers to get there through a JAM, oh and er, did i mention REALLY heavy rain? when i called and ask hans for directions, the snip bits of the conversation goes like this :
me : hans how to get to williams from o.u ah?
hans : ......................hello?
me : hans! how to get to williams from o.u?
hans : ha? oh oh okay. err...go up to the flyover to ss2, then dont go into the tunnel..........(can't hear).........then go all the way straight la.
me : huh? could you repeat?
hans : ...................................
me : hans! could you repeat please?
hans : hello? why so many people talking wan?(sounded scared and confused) who is talking? hello? who is this??
me : it's me!! rachel!!!!
hans : oh oh. err....
then he repeats. why i couldn hear whatever he said right after the tunnel part? FOUR cows in my car were either talking on the PHONE or communicating with each other using their udder, causing SO much of noise!
when all the cows unite at the shoulder of the road, with the 4 emergency signals on and surprisingly not causing any suspision to those road users, we continued on our journey to williams.
THEN the slowest MOO went missing for a second and ALL the cows had to stop (without warning) at the side of the road. my car stopped, with emergency lights on. this Ford was behind and he stopped. he tries to get in front of *me*. then the the Honda cow stopped, with emergency lights on. again, Ford went behind Honda and stopped. Ford tries to get to the front of Honda and zoom off but Iswara cow came along and ALSO stopped with emergency lights on! AGAIN, Ford tries to get to the front and just GET OUTTA THERE. This smart slow Kelisa cow just sped off and not stop because he's afraid (as usual) that the Ford bull might just knock him dead.
the slowest moo became the fastest, waiting for us in some Atria or something. Iswara was too excited, he just swurved into one of the junctions and ended up into the housing area. sigh.
did we get there? oh yes.....we did......
williams : fantastic mamak which serves almost all variety of food located somewhere near the old lim kok wing in taman mayang. yes. we were just trying to have dinner.
12:58:00 AM
May 26, 2006
WORDS OF WISDOM : 1
i love what Oprah Winfrey once said.....
"Lots of people want to sit with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take a bus with you when the limo breaks down"
10:58:00 PM
May 25, 2006
GOOD.................OR BAD?
you know how sometimes in life, you have a few people whom you're really close with, your soulmate, your confidant, your rock, whom you share everything with, go KERAEZEE with, hang out with almost everyday....and then one day. BOOM. your relationship just ends. well. isn't that just so cliche of life....
sometimes, you just can't take the way the treat you. and you being you...you just keep everything inside. she hits you. she insults you. then you think, it's just her. i should just accept the way she is. she treats you like her chaffeur. she backstabs you. or sometimes even worst, she talks about YOU in front of YOU. she smses her friend to bitch about you while you're ALSO in the car, driving. she decides your lunch. she bosses you around. she NEVER appreciates your help. no thank you. no sorry. no nothing.
no matter what. you just can't say NO.
you look back. pause. think to yourself.....why am i allowing this to happen in my life? THEN you decided to show her a little bit of how she is like. THEN you start to throw a little bit of tantrum when she bosses you. THEN you reach to a point where you can't take it in anymore. THEN.....you just stop communicating with her.
she screams. she yells. she cries. she begs. she pleads.
you were suprise...how on earth can i be so heartless towards her? this side of *me* has NEVER been revealed.....you keep BEGGIN God for forgiveness and to show her the light.....to help her.
now. she HATES you to your guts. she doesn't wanna have ANYTHING to do with YOU. she sees you and she STARES away. she probably wanna SPIT at your face when she passes you by.
she HATES YOU. she HATES YOU. she HATES YOU.
.........................................................................................
one day. you text her. to see how she is doing. somehow...for some reason...you just miss her.
she has changed. ALOT. she has gone through alot of hue and cry after we "broke up". she took a turn in life. she's not half the brat she is anymore.
question is.....did you do GOOD or did you do BAD? she has learnt. she is more appreciative and thankful. but you put her through hell to get her there.
did *me* do good or did *me* do bad?
7:45:00 PM
May 24, 2006
THOUGHT OF THE DAY : 1
hmmMmMMmmMMmmmm.....*me* stood at the sink for about half an hour just LOOKING at the water flowing out of the pipe. its...so...kul. it's a wonder how WATER can be so kul. it can't break, it can seperate.....it just....floooooooooooooooows...till you stop it. and the kaler is not even NEAR blue. why people keep kalering it blue....water....hmmMMmmMMmmm....
12:41:00 PM
THE COST.....
it's an obsession. it's the "in" thing now. it's downright...an illness.
observe. listen. you will never fail to hear teenage girls to middle age women (???) talking about it. LAMENTING about how...(here comes the dirty, forbidden, sensitive 3 letter word)...FAT they look. and BELIEVE *me*. this girls are not even near normal weight. rEaLiSeD that it seriously is sPrEaDiNg like MAD...
look at that *picture* and ponder for a moment...
TORTURE.TORTURE.TORTURE. Self TORTURE?....but can she control it? she wants to be like everyone. wants to look like how the society would perceive and define beauty...
10:25:00 AM
May 23, 2006
MUST LISTEN TO THIS......VERY SAD.....
my gosh. *me* just discovered this song minutes ago. it stirred my emotions....*me* gotta say, it's a must download song....hmmmMMmm....it's called "how to save a life" by THE FRAYS. hmmmmMmmm...have a feel of it. lyrics right down.
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
7:50:00 PM
LITTLE BIT of SOMETHING BIG
LOOK! LOOK! EGGLOOGLOO...
everybody has it....and i want it too....EGGLOOGLOO...how did i come up with this word, despite the fact that i'm so KUL...HmmmmMMmmmMMmmmm....
it was the name of this eggie game i came up with for church camp. see how the word church camp is in PURPLE kaler? that was the TEE-SHIRT'S kaler la...for one WHOLE day, we were all paandi's workers, RuNNinG around the resort....Teeheeeheee.....
i dunno why the words are getting bigger and biGGER and BIGGER as i type...eeeee...
scawee la...as if the words are gRoWinG as i type.....
*gulp*
4:39:00 PM
